Really tired of having to endure blow after blow of upsetting turn of events. Really tired of having to expect people to be understanding…
What the hell is going on ???
WHAT A CRAPPY SCREWED UP DAY
I am sitting down doing stats 101, and it doesn’t really do what it says — thanks to the prof. Not only is it draggy and boring, everyone can catch no ball on what he is trying to teach.
My schedule is as follows : Introduction to pol science, intro to psych, intro to stats, analytical skills, creative thinking, Business Government and Society. I have no idea for the love of GOD who in their unstable frame of mind created a policy that binded POL science and PSYCH together for one semester.
Class for pol science starts at 8.30 am sharp and lasts for 5 minutes. but in that 5 minutes you are given the opportunity to prove your weekly worth with a 7 mark quiz covering questions related to your readings.
I SPENT 3 HOURS +++++ READING UP ON MY READINGS.
and THANKS to the always reliable PUBLIC TRANSPORT that is bus service 190, i was 20 minutes late for class when i could be there with 15 minutes to spare.
i . lost. 7 . marks. all 7 marks.
best thing is i couldn’t argue much. BUT WHAT DO YOU WANT ME TO DO? i already planned to be early, if i went there any earlier i have to wake up at 6.30 am for a 8.30 am class. what nonsense…
A Walk with the Human Condition
Its 7.45 in the morning, and its hard to sleep. I would that that ORDing would make me happy. But it brought so much more problems than i expected.
Nothing has changed. But people’s perception has. I’m not perfect. I’m flawed just like anyone is. But why do i get penalized more than others when something goes wrong?
We have to ask ourselves :
Are we in love with the one we love or just the feeling of being in love?
Do we give up who provides long term security over ones that give short term bliss?
Do we only harp on all the mistakes others have made but not the sacrifices.
Do we cause hurt to feel in power and in control?
Do we feel angry ? when it accomplishes nothing? or to be objective to solve it as quickly. Anger breeds anger in others while removing emotion out of the equation dehumanises you. Both answers are wrong. There is no right answer, only an answer that hurts less.
This is no fairytale. People are innately selfish. and I had to learn that the hard way.
I’m Done
Monday Feb 23rd was the last day I turned up for work before I would take a well deserved hiatus all the way to my ORD date on 13th march. This brings to a close a two year stiny in the service and an agonizing 1 year 4 months out of the two working a shift routine. People doing shift work have volatile schedules, public holidays are not an entitlement , weekends end or begin abruptly, day and night is deceptively similar and most importantly, your body becomes screwed up.
Shift work screws with your body. Twelve hour shifts means that you will have to do night rotations. It is one thing to sleep late or to reach home in the wee hours of he morning after clubbing , it is a completely different experience forcing yourself awake every other hour. This creates an unnecessary amount of stress in the body in doing what it does not want to do. This has been proven in research that shift workers have shorter lives than their normal working counterparts due to the stress late nights have on the human heart. When the night has ended, a shift worker faces another problem. Sleeping in the day. The absence of bright lights trigger the human body to produce a chemical called serotonin to induce sleep. Sleeping in the day is thus arduous because not only are you constantly exposed to glaring rays of the sun, the hustle and bustle of life around you tricks your brain into thinking that you should keep awake even when its the last thing you want to do. Your eye bags darken and sink, giving you that panda look that only looks cute on pandas.
I learnt a great deal of things. I’ve gone through a fair bit. I wonder how long it’ll take me to adjust back again.
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When we were younger, being emotional or downright depressed would seem typical of a self loathing teenager. We would glance across blogs like these, say something like ,” orh…okay…next…” and move along to something more important. Not much attention would be paid.
As the number of candles increase by the year, these frustrations and pain seem more real. Some of us ignore it, some of us muck around in doom and gloom, some of us find distractions like work, some of us find comfort in sharing, some of us enter relationships.
There’s apparent truth if we were to say that problems grow more real with age, and minor petty things that get us down manifests into larger insidious parasites. They lie and wait in the dark corners of your every being, waiting for opportunities to surface and consume. They feed on happiness and joy, slipping in unnoticed when you let your guard down laughing at a happy moment until its too late.
All of us make sacrifices, it would be foolish to say that I deserve more just because my sacrifices are more than yours. Life does not and will not make such compromises. What life does is that it presents us with opportunities, and its up to people to show each other that your sacrifice was appreciated and worth it.
We make decisions and we stick by them because changing them announces to the world that initially you were wrong, and our ego can’t take that. But there’s nothing wrong with changing your mind, pride is a little commodity that we can do without. Everyone deserves their chance, even if you feel that there’s no hope left, or you’ve given them more than enough chances… but whatever we do… we must never give up.
Every Dog Has Its Day…
Hopefully that day will be sometime soon.
PostSecret.com
I was looking at facebook and I came across a familiar webbie… PostSecret
Doesn’t this remind you of someone familiar? =)
I must confess I was like that quite some time ago but don’t we all agree we all have a friend like that somewhere in our midst!
Anyway, I just finished my shift but i managed to sneak in a few hours of sleep while working muahahahaha~
Was thinking of doing a nice picture recap on my army/navy days but then too tired now lol. another day bah =)
I need comments on my Banner! Does it make the blog look depressing! type in your COMMENTS now!
Making the blog more presentable ~
Its been a while since i put up any posts longer than a few sentences due to the simple fact that I had little motivation to update a wordpress blog thats so user unfriendly — tsk =X
Thus i spent a few minutes tidying up the blog.. making it look a lil’ nicer and easier on the eyes (i hope lol)…
Until now i still have no idea how to maximise this stupid webbie lol.
Leave some Comments! Tell me what ya think of the new header pic lol. Courtesy of Threadless.com and it’s respective designer lololol ( i credited the source don’t sue me)
Links by the left should be working… tell me if i missed yours out! and i wanna put a tag board but dunnoe how… helppp meee thereeee tooo lol.
Cheers!
Christmas Eve Eve
*Lots of emotional sentimental babble here *
I ENJOY HOLIDAYS!
*More emotional Babble*
Cheers!
a short soliloquy
Is it hard to give and take?
While some may find this question unprofoundedly easy but it is usually in the simple questions that one gets lost.
Which runner pauses to stare at his reflection by the riverside as the marathon is still on?
Maturity is not always judged by being the bigger, magnanimous person. And Surely not solely on physical expressions and childish eccentricities.
Accusations, assumptions, regrets… hesitant, now disillutioned. manipulated painfully and willingly. how masochistic. the ministrations of a torturer this sure is. and now. indifference
Full Circle 